fade in to you right now and right here
lose myself in to you i would if i could

you grow on me and i grow within myself
you breathe life on me and i feel rejuvenated

you reach all the crevices of my being
and shelter them warm and tender

i feel i will shatter in the embrace of your affection
you gather all my scattered bits and put me together

your arms shelter me from the reality of you being an alien
i cannot live in pretense any longer

i cherish my being in its isolation and resolve
i celeberate my stubborn self for (the lack of) all virtue

freedom has a price
i pay it every moment i breathe
i inhale smoke
fresh air does not do me good

responsibility is a trade off with liberation
i shed skin every moment i walk empowered

shauk der shauk
lamha ba lamha
lehr pe lehr

i feel myself unravelled and explored
the shell cracked in oblivion
i feel my veils lifted ever so slow
and yet not slow enough to escape notice

i feel you close
coming closer every passing moment

i have cherished my being within myself
i have preserved my solitary self with care

you seem to walk right through
i feel stirred all over and within

your words are tender
your affection compassionate

i can sustain passion within only when restrained
i can feel life merely when it's around and not within

you make me feel alive beyond my comprehension
with life comes pain

i feel my nerves kindled every now and then
you tread my dreamlands soft and slow
yet i feel my universe shaky and unnerved

i am suspended by the theads of my defences
each one you seep through falls within with a weight of its own

i carry the weight of my being and experience
i cannot carry you without awareness

my conscious self fails to answer my sub conscious
i find you getting through
i am afraid of a time you get to me

you get to me already
i am afraid still

what exactly scares me is beyond me

the grey of uncertainty seeps through the white and black i sift with each breath
my words betray the colors of my intent
your sensitivity catches all but that meant for you

i am volatile
your intensity only makes each moment more transient
you ask me if i can sustain you
i wonder if you ever wonder about doing the same for me

i have sustained much more than my being all my life
i can sustain you any day
but should i

must i walk the same path all over again
must i lose myself in the pursuit of another

no i do not find reason enough
you are precious
but not quite precious enough

khamoshi

tum kehtay ho koi baat kaho
aaj kal aur din raat kaho
baat der baat kehti raho

mein kahun so kahun
itna kahun ke tum sunn sako

barsa baras unkahi tum kahan tak saho gay
khamoshi ke kinaraon mein lafz kab tak piro gay